its complicated

I had a creative block for months.

and BOOM!
my feelings are hurt , and inspiration hits me.

emotions; didnt really know I had them.

my question is: why is it that,its so hard for me to express myself when Im around you,but when your not around my mind turns upside down?

ill turn you inside out.

prelude to a dream

complicated,distraction. Your actions speak louder then words.
talk is cheap

my thoughts continue on a non-stop battle with my heart.
emotions dispute amongst one another.

why cant you see me?

They know,they know

Galaxy joint: I want one.

Im in fucking outer space man.
Anal probing at 12,be there or be squared.

I have 2 decently rolled joints sitting across the room from me,the smell has me captivated,lost in translation.
I just want to be UP,
I find myself smoking till I got chest pains.

A cup of coffee and a stogg,sounds wonderful.

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Sinking,in the end

People change,time passes,words said and forgotten,growth...moving on. I think fighting,and releasing negative energy isnt the way to do it anymore,i mean..what could possibly be the point of it? Yes,i infact, have always been a fighter, fight for what you love,what you believe in...but im done fighting. I just want to be a better person, I want to be a happier person,with good karma flowing out of me. I want people to feel the positive when we interract.

Alot has been going on.
Well,i mean..most being the same,with work,and my friends,well most of my friends.
I feel closer to the people I work with,then my friends that id usually kick it with.
I feel an intense distance from lauren,a severe distance between us,but im not worried,at all. Shes pregnant and doing her thing,and im living and doing mine,i feel a little betrayed by her but that shalt pass also.
I love her,want to be there for her,even if im not there with her...

I found my soulmate.
Were completely drawn to each other..
Its just complicated....

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We destroy that we create

I love him,but as a friend. A friend that I am completely liberated by. He tends to make me believe that a person like him,only comes one out of a million and Ive been feeling that fact for sometime now. I wish more people gave off what he gives off,because its captivating and highly inspiring. He told me that hes involved with someone,but with me,he doesnt want to get territorial with me,since I talk to other guys,but im not that way...and I told him that the drunk sex we had didnt satisfy me being that I was drunk and sloppy,and that I need the satisfaction of rocking his world,i also told him that sex doesnt cimplicate things and that its just sex...he said im one of the most dopest girls he knows,but our friendship comes first..and with that I couldnt agree more,then he kissed me. I couldnt lose him as a friend cause hes unique and hes my drug, but! Ill make love to him night and day if/when I get the chance.




You make me want to have a different outlook on life.
Thanks <3 for everything.

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